a different world.

2010-08-30T23:09:00.002+08:00

this is crazy.

xanga is rejecting me uhnuuu probably a god-sent attempt to get me to bed therefore imma take heed soon.
been feeling downdown recently, and i can't pinpoint the source,
i could probably peg it down to pms but hai it couldn't possibly be this down.
i do do try to love love people,
and each day it gets easier to really care,
to let them know they do matter.

i know God peeled off made over the layer of dead, unwanted bitterness that had for so long, shrouded my heart. i saw it come to life, I felt it challenge me whenever I was too close to being a jerk.

i'm changed but i'm still seeking.

contentment; within God for God with God.
I know once i've found it, nothing will ever be difficult again;
no relationships will dysfunction,
no hearts will be broken,
no empty lives.
and all i want to do is really reach out and love.
reach out and talk about God in the way i dedicate to everyone else possible.
this reason for living is the only thing i get up some mornings;
that i have a reason for living.
when i stop loving i'm breaking my own heart and i can't fanthom how i'd rise and walk silently among the loud.

they say it's a dream
to wake admidst sunstream.
here,
we awaken to mock crowing,
mechanised from devices,
we set everyday to tilt us out
of bed.

they say it's amazing,
we stand everyday and sing
of praises and dance to the Lord.
i rise, i rise, i rise.

they say it gets easier,
to be mechanical and
i look down at my heart
on fire.

they say it hurts to
give too much of yourself,
i stumble. how else,
do i climb above
barbed wire truths?

they say c'est difficile,
to speak of truth with
conviction.
i tap on my cavity,
'come, thou holy.'

i weep in earnest,
for the faded.
skip .
and before they say trip tumble fall,
it's over.
a play upon the brightly lit
colours cast into oblivion,
who never knew and never will.
Or happy.
bleeding burdened heart drips,
red: beyond the sunset.
leave me let lonely,
leave me set angry.
and before you know.
i'll be running back.
beyong beaches and beyond horizons.
for you.

they say.

2010-04-04T20:21:00.003+08:00

im sorry i know this is retarded i mean, yo dont you've a xanga why're you posting here kinda thing. but sometimes im just like lawl, i dont know who reads my xanga actually and im pretty damn sure no one comes here so well. sometimes i need a time to be myself without a filter. reading back at all those posts previously sometiems make me feel stupid as ! , why did i dedicate that much time to one dude y'know. im sorry man, but sometimes some things in lfie just shouldnt be as important. but for what it's worth i think we had a good run of two years. something else to reflect upon would be my friendships. it's nice to see how far ive come from being the pariah in primary school to actually having a social life pretty damn close to normal. i've friends, i love them and i cross my fingers & toes that they love me too 8) sometimes though its pretty hard to just get whats on everyones mind though i mean i do get the comparisons some people make btwn fio and i, we're w each other all the time its hard not to compare. and sometimes i have to say my ego takes a pretty hard thrashing when im around her, thinking about what people say about my looks, my personality and i just get the impression that people do believe im just a watered down, less cheerful and agreeable version of her.

i am not.

i am my own person and im starting to love myself for who i am, learning to sift out the parts of me that makes me me, the parts of me that i dont like about me and to keep those that are of importance and bin those are not. but i am here, actually, just to really say this.

it's nice to see how i've come,
and
thanks God, i wouldn't have made it without you carrying me , half the way.

2009-08-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

kinda cold that freezes your heart over
freezes your cold heart over and turns it high dry silver numb sad.

http://xanga.com/breezebus
[ive moved]

2009-06-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

pitch black, barefooted. black moss whispers underneath your barely moving feet. are you afraid yet? youre in too deep to back out, you shake your head, defiant. tell it to them, tell them youre never going to make me give up. slithers, hissing slips of movement just nearby, the crackle of leaves beneath your cold, dead dying toes. still not leaving, are you girl? your head screams yes, your heart whispers no, youll take me when i cant fight anymore. trees bend in agony, you can hear their screams surrounding you, all your doing. the wind swerves around them, howling, wailing; your spirit's replica. you shiver, you run, but there is no one left for you. shake your tresses, nail your feet, tear out your own skin because you know he took it all.
there's no one left for you.

2009-06-15T22:16:00.001+08:00

my hotmail's
emotion-markers@hotmail.com
munning add me! and leave your blooggg!

2009-06-15T22:05:00.004+08:00

i love my watch mates,
i think tenzing is super zai.
and im still telling the pippi joke to people!
hahaha
thinking about evan and his stupid joke telling still makes me laugh.

evan: okay i tell you guess a joke! once there was a famimly who had seven kids. they kept trying and trying for an eighth kid, and one day, they finally got it. the mother pushed and pushed and finally they got a kid ...
me: and it was jamie! hahaha joke.
evan: eh quiet! okayokay. then on the day of the pregnancy, the mother was having difficulty giving birth to it, but she pushed and she pushed, and it was very hard, but soon the baby came out,
jamie: and it had two heads! hahahaha
evan: eh! keep quiet! then the baby was very active somehow, it ran to the nurse and asked her, are you my mummy? the nurse said no, your mummy is in the room. the baby ran to the doctor, and asked, are you my daddy? and the doctor said, no, your mummy and daddy are in the room there. then the baby ran to the room, knocked, the daddy opened the door and then the baby ran up to the mummy
[evan smacks jamie real hard on the head twice]
and the baby asked. pain or not! pain or not!
jamie: huh i dont get it!
evan: i do for you again k!
[smacks her on the head again]
jamie: ow! yes pain! but i dont get it!
evan: you want me do again?

hahaha
he got so frustrated at the interruptions!

i love you all,
munning justina jolyn trisha ziwei jaime jamie lerwoon janice melissa shira meeling TENZING

2009-06-05T21:58:00.002+08:00

camp was pretty fun,
learnt the game werewolf
hees.
its quite an awesome game,
but the thing's that you need loads of people to play it.
got to be a werewolf once,
heh.

best part of camp?
claudia: STOP TOUCHING ME!
haha outzx nights.

told you youre a liar,
what happened to 'ill blog after my exams?'
liar.

2009-06-01T20:52:00.002+08:00

what it could've been:
cookies baked,
in your name and a
card.
shirt that would look great
on only you and my
heart.

happy never going to be;
second year.

thrice a day,
i must be getting bored.
or desperate.

2009-06-01T19:15:00.001+08:00

hold you like there's no tomorrow,
because tomorrow's gone 'for(e) us.

2009-06-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

drowning;

i just wanna dive right back in,
till i forgot i cant breathe inside it.
your open arms and tears towards, i'll swim,
if i didn't know can't touch, the floor's too deep.

oh yes we know the love's there,
but then love just can't be everywhere.
didn't think i'd miss you, this bad.
back to when i'd see your name and stop and stare.

it's hard to remember it's over,
hard to not tell you what i think
hard to just not run back to you,
hard to believe without you i'd still swim.

oh yes we know the love's there,
but then love just can't be everywhere.
didn't think i'd miss you, this bad.
back to when i'd see your name and stop and stare.

feels like im diving in the dark.
lost track of my own heart.
awoken from my nightmare's fantasy.
it's getting cold and sharp,
waves crashing on my skin.
tell me,
when were you not everything.

oh yes i know that you're there,
but when it's late my thoughts compare.
didn't think it'd ever be this way,
still surrounded by your memory,
always safe.

2009-05-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

picnic(at the botanical garden)
it's perfect for a picnic,
when wind chimes waltz the trees,
while pretty birds with pretty songs,
ruffle in the breeze.

orange globe transcends silver crescent,
pale gold overspills,
warnth shrouding every being,
happiness his will.

when treetops and daisy petals,
bob their smiles in unison,
and greet dew green grass,
admidst pale splashe of crimson.

it's perfect for a picnic,
baby; you and me.
and maybe, perhaps.
island creamary.

hees.
icecream!

2009-04-22T17:05:00.001+08:00

hello manzx!
:D
well i gotta do something ive wanted for a long time (though its ih tomorrow and all)!

listenlisten!
rachel/sihui? said i'd nice legs

so well in the event that you wanna see what my legs do look like,
scroll down!
:D

2009-04-22T16:59:00.006+08:00

haha you cheekopeh for checking out my legs!

2009-04-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

mood: cranky.
[this might be sounding alittle rude sounding to you/person reading this now which is just like. you, but its not meant to be; im trying to phrase stuff in the best way possible!]

okay about the whole,
meeling smsed no f* off to _______when she just asked if she could go out with her friends,
if you want the full story, here's where to get it.
(sorry if youve heard it more than once too, im just really so agitated over it.)

okay first things first.
note; these are known for fact, confirmed.
she started saying stuff about me about a month ago, that i was stealing her whole world away, etc.
&
she tried to block me from going to bn's church.

after,she smsed me bout the pizza party
- can i go for the class party?
[everyone's invited]
- oh. okay. are you mad at me or something? because you seem to be very cold to me when i talk to you.
[probably just becauase youve something against me and about the thing you said about bethany's church]
- i swear i dont have anything against you, and i never said anything about bn's church before.
can we make up and be friends? perhaps we had some misunderstandings over sy but id really like to be friends.
[okay maybe there was miscommunication. yeah.]

so she came and all, and whatever.

weeks later, we'd a celebration.
supposedly she didnt even want to care about sy (this coming from her own mouth)
but she crashed it.
she smsed wk,
called her,
then started smsing me.
- can i go for sy's celebration?

we were all.
okay fine.

and she wrote me letters.
one to say how left out she felt and how shes so happy we're friends.
another asking why i didnt reply.

and she keeps asking me if she can go out with us.
asking ME wth.
so well.
first time i cursed at her so pissedoffly.
so well.
and i apologised.

talk to me if you want the full total detsils.
basically it!

2009-04-01T23:03:00.001+08:00

you know sometimes it gets so heavy
it sinks all the way to your toes.
yet just when you think they've got to be better,
away from you your heart flows, kiss
goodbye.

2009-03-30T00:19:00.003+08:00

20135. xiaohan. says:
NO
IF I SEE YOU NOW
I'LL GET A NIGHTMARE MAN
meeling. says:
HAHA
okayokay
happy fifteen birthday man
hope that you get loads of wedgies tomorrow
i mean; today.
(:
20135. xiaohan. says:
haha YAY THANKS:3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOHAN SHAOLE BETHANY!
[p.s no one tell her what a wedgie is please :D self discovery is key]

2009-03-29T19:01:00.001+08:00

heyhey;
my computer's up again!
:D
believe i'll be changing blog too, soon.
im going to be on msn soon!
lovelovelovelovelovelove!

2009-03-28T03:49:00.002+08:00

everyone's sleeping, but you
stay awake just thinking
oh is everything gonna be
alright.

this quietness is deafening,
their sleeping sounds echoing,
why can't you be here for,
tonight.

maybe we can talk things out
settle down and spill our heart out,
or maybe not this time,
slip out the door don't say goodbye.

baby i gotta say it's over.
can't come back and i won't
i'll never.

maybe now's, not the time
for this. maybe now, we should both
just leave.
today blends tomorrow under
cover of night,
today's gone,
so i'll try till tomorrow's morn.

2008-11-21T16:34:00.001+08:00

an update:
i've to poop

2008-11-08T21:02:00.002+08:00

gosh.
im depressed;
i dont know.
i just realised they had a surprise party for j,
guess they really didnt want to tell me or something.
its just hard,
to realise that after two years.
i dont have any friends anymore.
reminds me of primary school again;

sec three.

2008-09-15T13:28:00.002+08:00

exams are freakishly near.
& soon theyll tap up & scream into my head &
ill be like.
whoa damn it.
theyre amazingly so many things to do.
chinese SIA for instance.
zahwth.
french verbs rvision; french oral revision;
chinese bao dao; chinese zuo wens [2]
l.a compo; l.a expository
math revision on very topic to try to get an a2.
o feel weird amidst everbody.
smetimes;
its just normal when im acting stupid.
like i can finally feel like me.
ah forget it.

quiz!
what do you think of when they say :
-jacket
[nybt[

-phone
[lines across mine]

-friends
[*?!]

-running
[7km]

-cows
[fat]

-swimming
[micheal phelps]

-sunlight
[doesnt actualy kill vampires]

-milk
[came from an udder]

-albert
9goat which eats socks]

-fishes
[scare me]

-exes
[are confusing]

-lovers
[think theyre tall]

-shopping
[long greyy sleeved shirt]

-christmas
[australia]

-growing up
[-]

-eating beans
[makes many fart]

-school
[is hard]

-uniforms
[white]

-america
[guns; dark blue]

-friendster
[ew]

-internet
[yo mama jokes]

-skipping
[hurts]

-training-underwear
-tanktops
-turtles
-tulips
-yoyos
-worldpeace
[is never going to happen.]

:(

you are there;;
when id rather you be beside me
again
you dont care;
when im crying over remains.
and unhappy ends.

2008-07-10T08:03:00.001+08:00

goodluck(;
since xanga's abnned ill wish you here!
;D
take care lovee.

i dont know what your point was in telling me that making others miserable is a hereditary hobby thing. but well you sure got it across.

2008-07-10T08:03:00.000+08:00

2008-07-06T12:44:00.002+08:00

here's a song dedicated to you.
the song i'll cry when i listen, when you aren't around.

Hey baby when we are together
Doing things
That we love
Everytime you’re near
I feel like I’m in heaven
Feeling high
I don’t want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I don’t wanna run away baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

Hey baby when we are together
Doin’ things
That we love
Everytime you’re near
I feel like I’m in heaven
Feelin’ high
I don’t want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I don’t wanna run away baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away
I want to stay forever
Through time and time
No promises
I don’t wanna run away
I don’t wanna be alone
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
Now and forever my love
No promises

I don’t wanna run away
Baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna to die in your arms here tonight

I don’t wanna run away
Baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna to die in your arms here tonight

i miss you mad.
hope you'll get to see this.
i love you.

2008-07-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

02072007<3
so its a first year anniversary!
;D

being with you is a ride of emotions, clouds of nervousness and uncertainty but always, undeniable happy no matter what happens, because i have you.
this year contains so many memories; so many smiles.
and it's now the beginning of another when we'll walk hand in hand to face it together,
whatever comes.

i love you.

ahhhh.
i wonder if aircon kills flowers.
:(
thanks for everything sexy! ;D
the surprises and presents are awesome!
dont worry;
if i ever elope with popeye youve to come along!
(=
hees.

2008-06-26T22:28:00.001+08:00

hold on;
i will always love you.
because you're more than with it;
especially when you give your quiet smile.
dont give up honzxzx

2008-06-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

AH MEIRU YOU FOUND MY BLOG!
IM GOING TO MIGRATE NOW!
HAIYO.
:(
SO TROUBLEMAKER!
NEXT TIME FIND ALREADY DONT TELL ME YOU'VE FOUNDD IT!
JUST SHHHHH.
AND YOU CAN SECRETLY RANSACK MY PERSONAL STUFFS OKAY!
;D

2008-06-11T21:38:00.003+08:00

dont think about it baby;
i know its not easy,
i know how frustrating it is.
but it was long ago,
and now ive you to protect me now(:
itll all be okay.

well open up your eyes to see like me;
open up your plans and damn your free
look inside your heart and you find,
the sky is yours.
so please dont please dont;
there's no need to hesitate
coz our time is short,
this is this is our faith,
im yours.

it'll all be okay.
i love you.

2008-06-10T15:29:00.004+08:00

hellooozx!(:
yeah im back from church camp at pulai springs
[sounds like a name for puke; pulaipulai]
ahaha
anyway; it's 22 days to the biggg dayyyyyyzx!
;D
inside happy matter(;
wthhhhh didja know that it's only. 14 days more till school restarts?!
eeks; first day of school is going to be troublesome.

545- ' eh meeling wake up la!' i called you fifteen times since five already! i dont care you wake up now or you dont go to school ah!'
600- ' still sleeping ah! you pack last night or not!'
800- 'sorry teacher, i didnt bring my ____ stuff', ill hand it in tomorrow.'
then replay 800 at one hour intervals.
:(

damnit.

weelll church camp was not badddddddd;
jiamin and audreeeeeyyy! <3
heh; new friends anyone?

i met this aunty called sheila in this pass the paper game where youd to get a random persons name and find her.
kinda forgot about her on the last day though. D:

what else;
oh yeah. there was this reverse dodgeball game we played with newspapers as balls (eeks;yuck D:) and everyone had to run backwards.
hahaha funnyfunny!
;D

oh i finally found out what kanina means.
[ i think its spelt like that]
wahlau its damn vulgar! :(

so yeah; all in all church camp was not bad/ in a way.
i fired my kor though. he kept fraternising with the enemy. :(
so it was like; bangbang youre gone byebye!
ahweells.

ive this urge to go swimming. bloopbloop.
five days are over; back in singapore with the tempermental/ wonderfully sunny weather.
( the weather's here, wish you were Sunny)
heh.

and loveeee!
+ badminton & trainings again.
;D

going to sentosa on friday(;
kungfu's pandas out;
crash the theaters!

2008-05-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

hello(=
this update is for max.

hello max (;

ohkay done.
sorry guys; i cant seem to feel happy online.
:(
somehow.
ta=ta.

2008-04-28T19:33:00.002+08:00

yueling:
hey junior. train hard.
;D

anthea:
yozxz! (;

poof!(: :
hey it's okay. (:
cheer up mug hard!

elza:
goshhhhh.
its been long.
hi! (:

WANYU:
hahahaha.
i still lovee the toilet bowl one.
so do you! (=

vicki:
hello;thanks (=

Jessica:
HAHA one day maybe we'll both get ____ for ____ when we're out.
awesome huh!

wanyu:
(=
thank you my wifeee.

xuewei:
heyo! (:
thanks for dropping by.

Max:
yup its about the two guys.
hees.
pretty awesome show huh!
leave your url please?
i kindda lost it.
DD:
you like chendol too?
;DD

2008-04-28T10:13:00.003+08:00

haha;
a diet analyser! ;D

okayokay.

most likely to be:
- a rockstar:
wanyu

- mad scientist
sheranne

- like her mum
lerwoon

-like her dad
erp.

-in a job that i will never get
xichen

-thrown in jail for murder
jiayan

-married to her rockstar
jolyn

-happily married with seven kids
amanda

-never wanting to be married
yiteng

-divorcing her husband seven million times
belle

-a supermodel
puay ling

- rich and famous
elaine

-planning a terrorist attack
valesha

guiness world record.

famous for:

- yelling
valesha

-running
yanchun&maybelle

-running with maybelle
yanchun

-running with yanchun
maybelle

-not understanding the question
grassae

-turning gay/straight/gay/ straight too many times.
jiayan

-being too skinny
lerwoon

-hollow bones
lerwoon

-kicking butts
wanyu

2008-04-27T13:09:00.002+08:00

sentosa! ;D
hees.
yesterday was the ultimate crazy deaaal!
sigh.
saturdaaaays..
anyway.
no pictures yeah.
sorry!
you guys dont get to see me parading around dressed in fats and a bikini.
haha im kidding;
i kept my clothes on.
>)
the sea was so coldddd.
okay the air molecules outside were worse though.
like. jump in; hey its cold!
then come out to check the time.
ohshitmytoesaregoingtodropoff.
hees.
then runrunrun to the shower place.
that doesnt have shower cubicles.
:(
HAHA i ate my first chendol everever!
its rather nice.
like a mix of coconut milk, jelly, jelly and beans.
how come milk can come from coconut anyway.
its the memorable sweet day of my year.
;D
escape ties.
LOVEEEEEEEEEE!

2008-04-21T20:59:00.002+08:00

Nobody gonna love me better,

I must stick with you forever.

Nobody gonna take me higher,

I must stick with you.

You know how to appreciate me,

I must stick with you, my baby.

Nobody ever make me feel this way,

I must stick with you.

I don't wanna go another day,

So I'm telling you exactly what's on my mind,

See the way we ride in our private lives,

Ain't nobody getting in between.

I want you to know that you're the only one for me;

-stickwithyou/pussycat dolls

the courage to show

to letting you know

I've never felt so much love before

and once again

I'm thinkin' about

takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go

I will never know

what my life would be

holding you close to me

will I ever see

you smiling back at me

how will I know

if I let you go

night after night

I hear myself say

why can't this feeling

just fade away

there's no one like you

you speak to my heart

it's such a shame we're worlds apart

- if i let you go / westlife

Well I guess I'm ready

For settling down

And fooling around is over

And I swear that it's true

No buts or maybes

When I'm falling down

There's always someone who saves me

And boy it's you

-world of our own/westlife

If I should die before I wake

It's 'cause you took my breath away

Losing you is like living in a world with no air

- no air

When you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

Everything's alright

When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes

I catch a glimpse of heaven

I find my paradise

When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting

To be with you again?

I'm gonna tell you that I love you

In the best way that I can

-Look me in the eye/Jonas brothers

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

- here without you

You mean to me

What I mean to you and..

Together baby,

There is nothing we won't do

- With you/ Chris Brown

It starts in my toes

And I crinkle my nose

Wherever it goes

I always know

That you make me smile

Please stay for a while now

Just take your time

Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane

But we are hidin' in a safer place

Under the covers stayin' safe and warm

You give me feelings that I adore

-Bubbly/Colbie Calliat

everything that ive got to say to you, all the times we've been through and how ive always missed you, even though i dont speak it out. its all here, in the words of others, but for now, just from me, they're to you.

2008-04-21T18:19:00.003+08:00

you've either say, i love you, let's not argue; or just say. i dont love you, lets break up.

2008-04-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

today seemed great.
(;
at the end anyway.
though training at changi was tiring.
D:
but in the end it was okay.
(=
sleepynights peeeps! <3

promise me you'll try;
dont give up,
because i dont think i can love like that again.

2008-04-14T20:09:00.002+08:00

sigh.
sat was not bad.
kinda okay after the whole.
fiasco thingo.
:(
i hope youre fine now..
sunday was cool.
hees.
i pass for sixteen!(:
even more easily with youuu<3
and we took dumbdumb pictures.
like that time at the concert.
hees.
happy memories!(;
thanks for always being there.
and holding my hand though you know im falling asleep.
and letting me know youll be there though youre not okay.
and staying up beyond late just to be there when i need you
and putting up with all the nationals shit and moodswings
and for letting me know you miss me.
thanks (:

2008-04-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

i don't know..
i'm tired..
do you really appreciate it?
are you really interested?
if you are, you won't forget..
i guess we're just different..
i still don't know..

2008-04-08T21:49:00.001+08:00

youve never worn it once.

2008-03-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

you called!
;D

2008-03-29T20:15:00.002+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

I like peaceful melodys

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

 It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

 Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me

I like one big family

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more

Oh no more no more no more

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more

This cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

2008-03-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

okay.
i will make a quiz!(:

later.
yaawn.

2008-03-29T19:51:00.001+08:00

WHITE CHICKS!(:
haha it's funny!
like really funny.

mmmm.

i miss you. :(

2008-03-27T21:23:00.002+08:00

wanyu:

thank you!(;

i loveee wanyu! <3

haha just meaning i love youu wife!(:

but i dont link anyone. D;

then if i link you then ive to link everyone else.

hees.

poof!:

i dont know what times youre referring to but i remember them too!(:

jamie:

hi i told you already(:

max:

i didnt write that post dude.

tsk.

no i dont think youre hot.

hees.

jamie:

mmmm. i think that they just.

aiya.

no ideas now.

hees.

poof!:

hi(;

i know. hees.

Jessica:

heyo!(:

yesyes.

i have graced your busrides with mine toooo!(:

hees.

grace<33:>

HAHA GRACE!(:

i saw you today!(:

honestly you look like a real tall sec one.

hees.

jamie:

haha jamie!(:

i think ill just think that im sick or something.

hees.

then go see doctor then find out i have a baby!(;

then ill say i knew it all along. ;D

hees.

Max:

no duh!

hees.

it bit me.

teeth inside,

then i pullled.

ouch;

2008-03-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

yawn.(;
running tomorrow!
yeahmaaan.
we lost to cedar.
3-2
sigh.
:(

2008-03-25T21:53:00.001+08:00

UH! F.
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2008-03-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

it sucked that i couldn't go training today.
it sucked that i stayed up late and was wondering: should i go or should i not? coz well. only main team players supposed to go and then. D:
i sucked more that when i went out, i met my seniors.
then i ran off and didnt explain to them why i didnt go training and was out instead.
sigh.
so they might be thinking, meeling's such a bitch now.
ponning training.
sigh.
but mr wee is so nice!(;

2008-03-22T11:32:00.002+08:00

ohshiiit.
i forgot to tell anyone that i wasnt going for training today.
damnit.
ohshit.
mr tiongjust called me to tell me that he was very angry.
it's really irresponsible.
sigh.
and i didnt hand up my consent form earlier, because i was planning on handing it up on saturday!
i need to grow up and all.
think of other people more.
D;

2008-03-20T23:57:00.001+08:00

greeeeeeeeeat day with mandy and wanyu!<3s(:

2008-03-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

always looking at the bright side of earth will make you wonder when you'll get cataracts.
whatthehell..sorry, i'm just veryvery bored.
below are a few links if you're bored. so you can go and visit.
1)www.winterwild.com
2)www.shengwei.blogspot.com (interesting blog!!)
3)www.borntobewild.com
4)www.friendster.com
5)www.facebook.com
6)www.max-liaw.blogspot.com (DAMDAM HOT GUY!!)
7)www.stupidfreaks.com
8)www.parkingidiots.com
9)www.whatanass.com
10)www.livescore.com

sigh..
tomorrow signals the start of term2
while here i am blogging and just finished training..
i've became a mugger, probably a hardcore one..
i went to warren today to study,
and chanced upon an evil person spying on me..
but i ran away, wonder if he saw me..
i think he should be quite hot.
cuz i was sweating like mad suddenly.
i like the video of george bush and rice,
sosososo funny i kept watching. hahahah
feel free to get the video from me at $0.50 each!!
while bluetooth lasts.
wahlao, i'm really bored and i don't know what to blog
bless everyone.

hope the letter made you smile,
and let it always make you smile,
cuz it took alot of courage to let you read it in front of me XD

take care people(:

2008-03-15T21:02:00.002+08:00

how i will find out in the future that i'm pregnant;

after showering:
me: don't you think i've grown fatter? ( to my husband )
[yes, he will be honest but nice(:]
him: yes a little, but you still look okay to me.
me: but i think this looks abit extreme dont you think? sigh. i should diet more.
( hits baby )
baby: piang eh, pain la. D:

/in two months/

me: eh i think i got diarrhea; my stomach feels funny.
baby: ohyuck.
( goes to the doctor ; surprise surprise, im pregnant!)

cool huh! (:

{the only thing worse than leaving is knowing that you won't be missed. ]

{unhappy people do unreasonable things; unreasonable people do unhappy things.]

2008-03-15T12:38:00.002+08:00

hide me now

under your wings

cover me

within your mighty hand

when the oceans rise and thunders roar

i will soar with you above the storm

father you are king over the flood

and i will be still and know you are God

where have you gone father? it seems that everything i've been doing nowadays is against you, against everything that you've taught me. help me to do the right thing, to follow your way and to find myself where i've lost faith and start walking from there with you again.

amen.

2008-03-15T12:25:00.003+08:00

all those crazy korean drama serials in the holidays.
D:

but they're rather really nice.

"她说要工作，却去和男同事喝酒。说生病，我给她钱，她用来买新皮包。说要去学，一个年后却和别人结婚。”

“她那么对你，你不生气吗？”

“在我们在一起的三年里，我们没有吵过架。生气归生气，但我只要一想：你是生气，但你的生命中能没有她吗？我的气都会消了。”

haha this being said from the boss of a company to this guy who was arguing with his girlfriend. hees.

2008-03-12T19:17:00.000+08:00

est-ce que tu connais je t'aime?

2008-03-12T18:52:00.002+08:00

hello peeps!
hahah thaat makes you all sound like chicks or something.
peeppeep ;D
anyway my kitten scratced me.
bite here bite there then i got annoyed and pulled my finger away.
stupid kitten left its teeth in my flesh.
D:
HAHA
im going for warren badminton.
've been sleeping too much recently.
think am going to grow orange like.
and circle will be my shape!(:
okayokay.
im going to call myself am.
one day,
am was crossing the road.
then am's mum beeped the horn.
then am said hello mum.
then am's mum said faster go home la you!
then am said.
huh i just go out eh.
then am's mum say okay byebye.
haha damnit i feel retarded.
too much sleepy.
see la am.
sigh.

send me a hotair balloon as a birthday present;

coz

i hate hairdryers.

2008-03-12T16:24:00.001+08:00

my dear best friend:
hello(; im sorry, writing like this must appear rather gay but.

aiyowhatthehell.
i write then give you at training la.
see you!(:

2008-03-09T12:49:00.001+08:00

spazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
no more school!!!!!
for a week

2008-03-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

just fly into the sky with me

and just leave everything else behind...

cuz it's just different if i'm alone..

2008-03-08T21:58:00.002+08:00

i'm currently very bored.
should i watch soccer?
how weird, 22 grown up man chasing after one stupid ball
commonly heard for guys yeah?
sigh...wonder what i'll do if my boyfriend is engrossed with soccer..
will i watch with him?
or just do my stuff..
or if i watch with him, will it be temporily?
sigh, so many queries...
are guys that troublesome to keep?
tsk, i'm confused.
enlighten me people..
seeyou soon(:

2008-03-08T21:57:00.001+08:00

hello people!!!(:
i'm at sentosa now...
and i hope,
i wish, i can go there in 4 months time(:
i just hope so, my dream, my wish for the moment..
take care people,
smile loads loads,
& cheer up for those who are sad(:
seeyou people! XD

2008-03-08T15:38:00.003+08:00

where the world just keeps spinning and
time just keeps moving
you gotta kepp running away
just coz everything's nothing and
nothing ain't helping there's
dust in each every day

coz you know that
it all ends that
nothing really stands

where the smiles begin fading
the sunlight starts leaving
you wanna keep following today
just coz this one day is perfect
this one day is all that you
need to hide away

because everything's nothing and
nothing ain't helping there's
dust scattered your way

2008-03-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

LSC!
i hate the baths the early mornings the hard floor the warm nights and the never enough sleep times.
but you guys more than make up for it.
(;
so i hope things will be fine;
no dropping ceiling fans or anything.
and we can all just spend time doing things we're not supposed to.
hees.

i need to yell at you.
like;
whatthefreak.
you bitch.
if you did something wrong then just admit it.
i mean;
we can't exactly kick you out but we can appreciate that at least you put in effort.
instead of backstabbing others and blamiing it on us.
:(

yiteng: heyo!(: well you posted a ranom pictureee.
xinying: welll youre captain what! (: kill my sister with training! hees. yeah la; you improvedddd durh.
yueling:hello junior/twin! train hard!(=
jamie: hello jamie you love me too!
max: hello!(:

2008-03-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

the rape scene from that stupid show reenacts
when after she doesnt want any guy to touch her
sigh.
when i think about it and everything in life recently;
i feel like sitting against the wall slamming my head against the wall like i do everynight.
life is a bore.
tomorrow history project.
kns hear that mfb voice again.
irritiating ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2008-03-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

恋空

wow its nice.
i cried.
made me appreciate you being next to me more
and how amazing you are.
(;
but i think that in some way,
guys have to think about stuff the way girls think about stuff.
i mean;

girls would rather live with a broken heart knowing that the guy died loving them;
then realize many years later how much time they wasted,
wishing for something they could have had all along.

so now im feeling rather stunned at some of the things you're telling me.

2008-02-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

jump off this cliff into tomorrow with me

2008-02-28T17:24:00.002+08:00

i just want you to know;
thanks.
for everything you did recently.
stopping my tears, making me laugh
cutting off all the pain with the things that you can say.
you've been trying so hard,
it must hurt.
im sorry for not being there enough sometimes,
for not appreciating you enough when things have been mad stressful for you.
i promise i'll be there,
i promise i'll meet you at the end of your exams and everything,
and let you know,
that it'll never change.
you're the greatest thing i have in my life.

Omarion - Ice box

2008-02-25T20:59:00.001+08:00

the song is nice thouuugh!(:

2008-02-25T20:45:00.001+08:00

HAHAH I JUST LISTENED TO THE ICEBOX SONG.
WHATTHEHELL!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
COLD THEN WEAR JACKET LA!
HAHAHAHA
DAMNDUMBBBB

2008-02-25T19:56:00.002+08:00

HAHA
you know right!
there's this maroon5 song which i lovelovelove called
little of your time.
it's quite cool!(:
then i realised there's this line that goes:

we're just passionate lovers
we travel under the covers

and it sounds like a mrt!
HAHAHA
it makes me laugh allthewaaaayyy ;D

2008-02-23T22:30:00.001+08:00

HI
THIS IS NUMBER 62.
CALLING ALL ALIENS OUT THERE.
IVE EATEN AN EARTHLING.
SHE IS SHOUTING FROM MY STOMACH.
SHAKING MY UDDER AND NOW I HAVE INDIGESTION.
HELP ME ALIEN BROTHERS AND SISTERS!
AHHHHHH!

AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

2008-02-23T22:17:00.002+08:00

first post about my first post on my first xanga!(:

http://www.xanga.com/ihave_atoothbrush

HAHAHAHAHA

charlenes party tomorrow.
i have no clotheeees to weaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.
DD;

2008-02-21T19:36:00.002+08:00

happy belateeeedd valentines! (;

bigbig thank yous to:
wanyu
youming
puayling
jamie
amanda
anthea

for your valentine day preseeents. :( my mortal didnt get me one. ( though i didnt get her one too. D; )

thanks loads you guys for reminding me that when sometimes he can seem so important, friends can never be replaced and they will always be there when disappointments flood.
i love you all!(:

2008-02-18T21:07:00.001+08:00

damnit i just realised youre now sixteen.
urhhhhhh!
i wanna watch NC16 movies too...
just for the sake of making others jealous. ;D

SWEET SIXTEEN MY FRIENDFRIENDFRIEND!(:

2008-02-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

take that - patience

just have a little patience
im still hurting from the trust i lost
im feeling your frustration
any minute all the pain will stop

just hold me close
inside your arms tonight
dont be too hard on my emotions

'cause i need time
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while im still healing
just try have and have a little patience

i really wanna start over again
i know you wanna be my salvation
the one that i can always depend

i'll try to be strong
believe me im trying to move on
it's complicated but understand me

'cause i need time
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while im still healing
just try have and have a little patience
have a little patience

'cause the scars run so deep
it's been hard but i have to believe
have a little patience
have a little patience

all i wanna say: there.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JY(:

2008-02-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

HAHA LUNCH PERIOD.
wanyu's so super gay.
D:
like, we were at the library then i was bored coz it was a library and people went shhhhh.
then i went.

ill race you up to the fourth floor! (:

then i started climbing the steps.

but it was so so so quiet.
then in was wondering if she could float or something when i turned around.

and she was on the first floor laughing at me! D:

freachickaoijdoi

2008-02-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

goodbye to you my trusted friend
we´ve known each other since wewere nine or ten
together we´ve climbed hills and trees
learned of love and abc´s
skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

goodbye my friend it´s hard to die
when all the birds are singingin the sky
now that spring is in the air
pretty girls are everywhere
think of me and i´ll be there

we had joy we had fun we had
seasons in the sun
but the hills that we climbed were
just seasons out of time

we've drifted so far we cant hear each other when we shout anymore.
sometimes i cry at night and press for your number before realising;
i changed my phone and youre no longer on speeddial.
guess its bout the same in real life:
we've both moved on and its no longer that crazily read each other minds close.
hey we've got to grow up sometime.
just take care my best friend,
coz life's trippy.
(;
love ya; happy birthday.

2008-02-04T17:58:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

mmhmmm.

2008-02-04T17:54:00.000+08:00

okay.
max:
just coz youre young and small! ;D
xinying:
uhuh no ideaaa. but good luck for the tournament! (;
ben:
well i try. yeah.
trying. :(
jamie:
HAHA HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENORITA!
fourteeeeeeen darling.
whoo.
sharmila:
YOURE AWESOME SHARM!
well one day youll catch up.
* winks*
hees.

love you guys.

2008-01-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

hey.
sorry to tags okay?
ill reply soon.
yeeah.
guess ill tryy
byees

2008-01-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

i smile shake my head and
lie to myself im okay
the burning water slaps a wake up call;
who're you heart, to lie to your soul?

but i dont care, ill survive.
but im now officiallly bitchy and lame.
yeah.
bear with it if you can yeah?

whatever, if its so funny go date her.

2008-01-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

haha! new news here ;D
okays.

one: I AM FOURTEEN.
ohgoshworshipme. (:
two: life's too short to waste time being mature; you might wanna rethink the worship me part.

definition of mature: being old in the head and not doing fun/obscenee--ed stuff anymore because youre old enough to know better. D;
definition of worship: do what i do! (:

three: i am going outtttttttttttttt.!
four:newphone AHHHHHHH!
five: no songs in new phone. D:
six: i am wearing thed pink earrings i got for christmas lastlastyear for the first time.
gosh theyre gigantic.
seven: i went for a triangle audition.
triangle: one ny, one hc & one scgs pupil.
triangle programme: teaches you how to speak better and present better.
eight: i have submitted my CAP file!
gosh, i hope i got in. urghhhhhhh. *saws nails*
nine: im going out!
thats so amazingly cool, the last time i went out was on firstjan :(.
ten: ILOVEPINK!
(the colour)

meelingin;meelingout. byee!(;

2008-01-17T18:59:00.000+08:00

we'll stick it through, we willwillwillwillwill.
though everything sucks right now, itll get better.
hey youll start climbing up when you reach rockbottom anyway.
so cheer up and be strong okay?
have faith, itll be okay.

2008-01-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

won't go home without you lyrics/

i asked her to stay but she wouldnt listen
and she left before i had the chance to say
the words that would mend the things that were broken
but now it's far too late, she's gone away

every night you cry yourself to sleep
thinking why does this happen to me?
thinking why must it be so hard?
hard to believe.

it's not over tonight
just give me one more chance to make it right
i may not make it through the night
i wont go home without you.

cheer up; we'll stick through it together; always okay?<3

400th post.
this is rather glooomy; i miss you badd.
hmm.

2008-01-12T21:09:00.001+08:00

things that ive been moody about today:
-cancelling on wanyu for our outing.
im so sorry wifee; i'll make it up to you, i prooomise. really. sorry sorry sorry...
-remembering how it was last year; an almost guaranteed spot in singles to being degraded to second doubles.
-having lost and played like bullshit
-being late for training coz i dint get the message.
-being so exhausted the whole day, my eyes felt like lead.
-not being able to message you or anything for so long, it feels like we've broken up.
-no hugs.
-not being to see you there, when everything sucked and i wanted to cry.
-looking and feeling like a giant who should break everything she sits on according to laws of gravity.
-not having the pink grip that looked super cool but ran out.
-having been scolded by coach for going to the toilet.
-having it made to seem like im worthless, just another player to add up to tally the numbers.
-not bringing my glasses today.
-losing to edward tan, two sets.
-not getting my phone today.
-not being to talk to anyone at all about how i felt.

ah.dfdfdfdfduck.

2008-01-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

huh i thought i'd only play that stupid game with you.
D:
but its okay.
ive played it like mad with other people too!
yup.
like; nothing to do lets go play scissors paper stone and jigsaw to see who can stay up long.
so yeah.
nothing much.
(;
aha.

2008-01-07T18:11:00.001+08:00

DAAAAAAMNIIT.
dead blog!
okay; here comes revival.

reply to tags:
[DINE] hahahaha i just bought them like, on the first day of school and you knooow! i havent bought maths. my math teachers surname is fang. cool right! ;D

[mun] hello munning your tennis jacket is deeeeeeaad sexy. (;

[max] happy school year maxx!(;

[Jireh] hahaha i doubt youll see this; but thanks!(; cool that you came to church on omega night. ;D

[yiteng] HAHA ive seen you in school! happy birthday in twenty six days yeah!(;

[sharmilaaa] whoo!hihi! sec two already you know! gosh, we're growing old. can't belief it was two years ago that we sat together and copied spelling in class. sorry i havent gone to your blog lately, have been pretty darn busy. D:

[poof!] sec four dude. wowwwwwwwww. hees.

[grace<33] welcomezxzzx. hahaha; you owe be a bdaypresent for thaaaaat.;DD

[wanyu] crazy mad first wifeeee. weell i warned you i didnt bring money out ohkay! ;D 13th's going to rock.

IM GOING TO BE FOURTEEN!
AND IM SEC TWO!
HAHAHAHA JUNIORS.
JUNIORS!
* inserts evil face*heheh

2008-01-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with you

Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to youFeeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

'Cause I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah

I don't wanna miss a thing

Aerosmith - I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing (Armagedon)

2008-01-01T21:16:00.001+08:00

they might not look much to you; but i love the song.

2008-01-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

coz i need you baby;
and i dont want this to end.

2008-01-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

same french class as jaaaay-mee!
;D

gosh, i need to start working shit hard for school.
oh&.
i've started using the word shit alot.
sorry, teenage phase.
yeaah.

omega night's not bad.
sorry sw im kinda off pitch when i dont know which note to sing.
;D

sorry i didnt call you at twelve, was busy.
sorry its disappointing.
its not like i had a choice.
urghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
meeling's going to school bald.

2007-12-24T00:34:00.001+08:00

have you missed me?

2007-12-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

You're interested in things such as politics, psychology, child care, and peace. I wouldn't go so far as to call you a hippie, but some of you may be tree-huggers. You're the type of people who are interested in bettering the world. You're possible the least nerdy of them all; unless you participate in other activies that paled your nerdiness compared to your involvement in social activities. Whatever the case, we could still use more of you around.

haha, a stupid quiz to pass time and calm me down.

2007-12-09T20:14:00.001+08:00

hellohellohello

im bored.
im suppose to be playing badminton.
but i don't know what im doing now.
i think i brought my desktop to the badminton hall.
maybe i didn't.
i don't know.
how?
easy, just forget that.

tomorrow i've competition.
i scared i'll freak out, but i know i'll try my best not to.
yay.
im bored.
hmmm, don't know what else to type, but..
today was nice.
just veryveryvery nice.
i missed it.
didn't have it for veryvery long.
felt nice again(:

take care people!!!
seeya around (:

2007-12-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

hello.

i am bored.
i feel like playing badminton.
nah, not really.
i am still having church camp and my phone is dying..
maybe it's dead.
i don't exactly know.
damn, why didn't i bring the charger........
oh well, it's a little too late though i can just walk home anytime to take the charger
as and when i like as i stay so near to the church,
but i can't do that because afterall this is a camp, a church camp too.
i don't know what i've done yesterday...
oh yeah i blogged.
other than that, i'll tell you guys and girls another time when i return home.
what i did today is confidential too.
you've to pay me $20 to know.
or maybe if i am in a good mood, i might tell you for free.
or maybe i'll pay you to listen.
nah i am kidding.
i am broke.
yay!
i mean, i am happy because i am in the church camp and i love it alot.
it is very fun(:
veryveryvery fun(:
at least better than stoning at home...hees.
it is sososososo fun it can make people who didn't go for the camp jealous.
tsk, i shall not say no more.
oh well.....
change of mood...nevermind.
shall end my post here.
take care people.
have a nice last month of holidays(:
seeya

2007-12-06T11:01:00.000+08:00

hello people

im bored.
im at the church camp now.
it's boring.
i brought along my harry potter book. i think i did.
oh well, it's boring so i shall read when it's boring but it's not exactly boring now.
my camp is 3 days 2 nights.
oh ya, how can i be blogging while at camp?
possibility 1) im not at camp.
possibility 2) i brought my laptop to the camp.
possibility 3) you're stupid enough to believe anything
oh well, im really very very bored.
i can't predict what im doing later but for now, im doing something.
yeah something. something like singing but i've a sorethroat and im singing.
im going to sing for someone and i promised i will(:
hahahahahaha
it's going to be a long christmas.............
hais....if only..........
but well, it's going to be a great post christmas and i can promise you that(:
hopehope i can go for the countdown..yay!
im kind of bored now.
i want to play badminton later (:
i'll try my best, to clinch that victory for you (:
yay, im bored.
it's raining..
i hope im doing fine......
wondering how im doing now...
argh...............
if only i knew..

rainrain go away, come again another day.
& i wonder how is it like to -- in the rain...
10 mins 10 mins and moreeeeeeee
i won't time i promise, i'll make it as long as possible
yay!
hope my camp will be fast over...
i want to watch movies!!!
actually not the movie...just..yeah, only you will get it. hees

& take care everyone, esp you. yeah.
hees, this post is boring. i shall find another day with another mood to post another post(:
i hope christmas will be a happy one for you...

though i won't be here to spend it with you,
i'll be there thinking of you.
i wish i didn't have to go,
and if you read this, which of course you will,
i want to just let you know, everyday is christmas to us,
as long as we're happy together (:
we'll celebrate together when i return,
and i promise you, with all my heart,
it'll be the best days of your life.(:
with you beside me, nothing gets into our way.
& yes, all i want for christmas, is you...
smilesmilesmilesmilesmile(:(:(:

On top of the world - Boys Like Girls

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

When the moon is gone forever
I hope you're up there somewhere
I'll see you again
Be with you my friend

'Cause all the roads they lead to where you are
And all the streetlights shine like they were stars
That's where you are

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
And we can do anything,
We can be anything
I'll meet you tonight on top of the world
As real as it seems,
You're only in my dreams

Look out across the water
Faces of lonely daughters and mothers who care
But just can't be there
Swear that I will see you someday
I have to find a way
To show you I care
Even if you're not there

So I'm following the road to where you are
(Meet you tonight on top of)
The streetlights they will guide me to the stars
That's where you are

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
And we can do anything,
We can be anything
I'll meet you tonight on top of the world
As real as it seems,
You're only in my dreams

My heart is empty without you
Sometimes you don't know what you do
And I need you tonight
I'll fall asleep and it's alright
Close my eyes and I'll be by your side

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
And we can do anything,
We can be anything
I'll meet you tonight on top of the world
As real as it seems,
You're only in my dreams

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
(On top of the world)
As real as it seems,
You're only in my dreams

i'll see you there, we'll make it our night(:

2007-12-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

HOW CRAZY ARE YOU?
Check next to the boxes if you have done the following action.
1. [X]You have choked on your water before.
2. [X] You have tripped down the stairs before.
3. [ X] You have walked into a door.
4. [X] You have pushed a door the wrong way.
5. [X] You have walked into a wall.
6. [X] You have fallen going [[UP]] the stairs
7. [X] You have jumped off something.
8. [X] You have been shocked.
9. [] You have put metal/aluminum in the microwave/oven.
10. [ ] Right after a commercial comes on you have forgotten the showyou were watching.erm; i think not.
11. [X] You have forgotten something that someone said.
12. [ ] Your friends/family call you blond.
13. [] You barely ever understand stuff/ jokes, or it takes a long time to figure them out.only sometimes ohkay(x
14. [X] You have been bleeding and not even noticed it.
15. [X] You've worn something backwards/ in side out the whole daywithout knowing.i was seven, and i changed back in public. ;D
16. [] You have stuck a knife in a toaster before.
17. [X] You have played with fire.mooncake festivals!(:
18. [X] You have burned something because you forgot about it.
19. [] You've burned yourself on a flat iron/curling iron.nah, dont own one.
20. [ ] You had to write this down or use a calculator or use your fingers to figure out your answer.Add up your points after you finish this multiply by 5.

only 65%! ahahaha

2007-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

hello.
here're a few things im never going to say to you.

i hate it when you slit. it doesnt help and the only thing it does is hurt you and make me feel bad when i cant help it.
i hate you when you slit, its so horrible.
i hate it when you vent on me, without warning me first.
i hate it when you tell me youre fine, when youre not and i know it.
i hate it when you tell me youre fine, when youre not then you vent on me.
i hate it when you keep signing in and out of messenger because that makes me feel like talking to you.
i hate it when you say stuff like, you can blame me, and not do anything about it.
i hate it when you say stuff like, dont forever then, its up to you.
i hate it when im ignoring you.
i hate it when i cant talk to you, because you say youll spill my secrets.
i hate it when you do stuff to test how much i trust you, or how much i care, isnt it enough when i tell you?
i hate it when we quarrel over stuff that you plan to test me.
i hate it when you make it my fault.
i hate it when you hide stuff from me just coz im sick.sick, not invalid.
i hate it when you challenge me to do stuff forever, knowing full well i wont ignore you forever. well it sure as hell not my fault this time.
i hate it when we both know we're looking at each others pm and nick, yet adamantly refuse to talk to each other, its always got to be me first.
i hate it when you dont want to just admit youre wrong and start talking me first.
i hate it now.

since youre obviously not going to talk to me first, and im not going to talk to you first this time.
fine.

2007-11-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

know it can only be you,
though there're so many problems.

2007-11-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

hi meeling are you:

tired?
quite

bored?
quite

lazy?
quite

sleepy?
quite

unhappy?
quite

bum-ish?
quite

anti-homework-ish?
yes.

2007-11-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

shrug.
it's petty i know.
but now, i dont want to talk to you.
go busy yourself.